Yes, I was a little unrealistic

So, on the guest list front we did get the list from my Mom, and we did talk about the list.... but we didn't really finalize it. There were so many things that I wanted and needed to get done this weekend, but it just didn't happen. With Father's Day on Sunday, we went to my parents' house and spent the day with them, so there went that day. Saturday, we caught the matinee of "THE HAPPENING", and I went to look at table runners and table cloths. We also gave a couple of the dogs baths and did some laundry (I know hearing about our chores is exciting and all...)

Looking at the options for the table runners or topper was kind of a downer, actually. I saw a picture of a wedding where they used orange/terracotta tablecloths, and really thought it looked awesome. So, my thought was that since my caterer doesn't carry the orange/terracotta tablecloths, I would or could find a runner or table topper to use on top of white tablecloths. But the "big" rental place in Fort Worth didn't really have the right color that I needed, and it was really going to be a little more money than I wanted or need to spend on that. The closest was an iridescent orange with a crinkly texture table runner/sash. It will be $5 per sash/runner - but with approx. 20 tables, that'll be an extra $100. Not that $100 is HUGE, mind you, but I could buy a lot of beer for that. Not to mention, they didn't just 'WOW' me. If they were exactly right, I'd probably be a little more heartbroken. My other option would be to make the table runners, but I'd need to find the fabric for under $7 a yard to be able to make them for the $100 or less. I'll keep looking, but if I don't find anything, oh well.

This week, my task at night is to go through the stack of papers/old bills/crap that is sitting in piles on our table. And stuffed into our antique bar thing - it has openings that we use for our bills, but we have been really bad at filing..... I can't stand all that clutter, and also I need to get more organized on all of that so that we can TRY to catch up (ha!!). Since there's nothing really on TV, it'll give me something to do (other than working out!). Catching up on the bills seems like it will take quite a while, which is so depressing. I'm tired of getting the calls from all the "UNKNOWN" callers. I've come to the conclusion I really really need to search for a new job that pays more. Not that I LOVE my job now, but it is comfortable and pretty easy, and I've been here almost 9 years. But at the end of the day, it doesn't pay enough (and since it pays commision, they don't give raises). You'd think this would be easy as my dear fiancee works for a staffing company (not temp, but more like a headhunter). But no. When he asks "Well, what do you want to do?" my response is "Anything that I can make more money at." I think it's a valid answer, but he insists that I need to figure out what it is I want to do. In a perfect world, I'd love to open up my own shop! But, as we have no money, bad credit, and the economy really isn't booming, that would probably not be an option for me right now. So I guess I'll job search on my own for now and see what's out there.

Tonight is the workout with the trainer for this week. It'll be upper body and abs. I have about 2 months now to lose as many inches as I can before they begin the alterations on my dress. Then after that, I just need to maintain. You know, I should be totally enjoying that I can go to the gym and work out with a trainer, seeing as though I have no money. I tell myself this, but truth be told, if I could get out of my membership I would. I'm stuck with it until the end of the year at least. After that, no trainer. But I still would like the membership, and as it's only about $30 ( a little less, actually) a month, hopefully we'll be able to keep that.

Hope you all have a great Monday!